Friday, September 04, 2009
friends
its amazing how my life had changed so much over 2009... bad things happen, good things happen, sad things happen, happy things happen, shocking things happen, weird things happen, disappointing things happen, surprising things happen, expected things happen, unexpected things happen, every kinda things happen, any kinda things happen, i duno... u name it, i have it...
i always cry for and over my friends, my kids, the TV show, even the cartoon... and of course, God. and when i cry for u, or over u, or with u, i know my life had changed, coz u're a part of me regardless if im a part of u... sometimes evyone perceive feelings differently, i may have feelings for u, but u have none for me, i may not have that kinda feelings for u, but u loved me the most.. i may be someone's most love, but i dun love back, i love someone the most, but this person totally ignore my feelings, well, this is life.. i had learnt not to expect returns, because i, myself, is guilty of not returning the love needed back. sometimes, its just the process that i need, the need of crying about someone, to remember how happy we used to be, the need of crying with someone, to ease their pain, and paint a new relationship between us... and twinny, u are one of them! and to cry for someone, like 亲爱的, coz i could feel the pain that was in her... so much so i was shocked! sometimes u dun need to speak or say anything, its the feel, its the one look we give to each other...
well, i would and could say that im a typical cry baby.. i cry alot, and i like to cry.. yes, i am emo, thats what ppl who knows me well enuff says.. when i cry, im sure of the feeling.. when im really happy, i cry, when i talk abt my kids during PTM, i cry.. (nearly) every time i had to fight back my tears.. this is silly, i know... they are just like my own.. when i see my kids dance during concert, i cried.. seeing how well, they could do it.. all the naughty stuffs they did, making me crazy, making my health collapse cause of them, dearly died, literally, teaching em.. but their simple hug, warmth my heart... and i cried... i always cry... when my friends cry, i also cry... when my mum dun appreciate me, i cry buckets... and in boston, i cried like shit... i nv cried so badly, and i can still remember the day 亲爱的 wanted to come n disturb me, but was shocked to see me crying so badly.. and she even asked.. "你是感动到哭，还是伤心“ lol... she's so innocent...! n even handed me my vooooodooooo chou chou... -_-" thats why i love her so much.. i lover her innocent, and how much she appreciates me... this is 1 good thing that happened in 2009...
not juz 亲爱的.. i got to be closer to girlfriend, and she even gave me a 定情之物！lol... well, ill be ur rainbow, and ull be mine~ LOL! sooo cheeesy!!
i always cry for and over my friends, my kids, the TV show, even the cartoon... and of course, God. and when i cry for u, or over u, or with u, i know my life had changed, coz u're a part of me regardless if im a part of u... sometimes evyone perceive feelings differently, i may have feelings for u, but u have none for me, i may not have that kinda feelings for u, but u loved me the most.. i may be someone's most love, but i dun love back, i love someone the most, but this person totally ignore my feelings, well, this is life.. i had learnt not to expect returns, because i, myself, is guilty of not returning the love needed back. sometimes, its just the process that i need, the need of crying about someone, to remember how happy we used to be, the need of crying with someone, to ease their pain, and paint a new relationship between us... and twinny, u are one of them! and to cry for someone, like 亲爱的, coz i could feel the pain that was in her... so much so i was shocked! sometimes u dun need to speak or say anything, its the feel, its the one look we give to each other...
well, i would and could say that im a typical cry baby.. i cry alot, and i like to cry.. yes, i am emo, thats what ppl who knows me well enuff says.. when i cry, im sure of the feeling.. when im really happy, i cry, when i talk abt my kids during PTM, i cry.. (nearly) every time i had to fight back my tears.. this is silly, i know... they are just like my own.. when i see my kids dance during concert, i cried.. seeing how well, they could do it.. all the naughty stuffs they did, making me crazy, making my health collapse cause of them, dearly died, literally, teaching em.. but their simple hug, warmth my heart... and i cried... i always cry... when my friends cry, i also cry... when my mum dun appreciate me, i cry buckets... and in boston, i cried like shit... i nv cried so badly, and i can still remember the day 亲爱的 wanted to come n disturb me, but was shocked to see me crying so badly.. and she even asked.. "你是感动到哭，还是伤心“ lol... she's so innocent...! n even handed me my vooooodooooo chou chou... -_-" thats why i love her so much.. i lover her innocent, and how much she appreciates me... this is 1 good thing that happened in 2009...
not juz 亲爱的.. i got to be closer to girlfriend, and she even gave me a 定情之物！lol... well, ill be ur rainbow, and ull be mine~ LOL! sooo cheeesy!!
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